A long way down

This first post comes from 30,000 feet in the air written by a 24stone women with an armrest that wont go down because I'm in the way but doesn't go all the way up so I can't sit back. It's my first time on a plane in 20 years and so far it is a horrible experience, I wasn't nervous and the reason has just hit me like a brick wall, if the plane crashed it would put me out of the misery that is my life. I'm feelin slightly bitter that this trip is more forced then it should be, I'm visiting my parents who emigrated 6 months ago, if they hadn't have left I wouldn't be sat here in the tin can unable to see the ground!

A big change is required but is this time any different to any other?